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Starlight, I will be chasing my starlight.

Front Note

SHOUT OUT TO WHOEVER!

OH-MY-GOD!
TOYBOY!

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Thursday, December 21, 2006

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Jeebuz, i'm bloody pissed -__________-"

He called me so he could get his princess ninja the slippers she wanted.
He used me again and again -____________-"
He promised to get me something but i refused seh.
Gawd, i wasted that attempt.

Today is already 1 year of mummy's death anniversary? Ok i don't know how i'm supposed to call it. &to think of that i miss her a whole lot. Everything is shit without her. It's like we lost the spark to almost everything and there is absolutely no light.

I can't believe it that my very own grandmother would turn her back on me. Telling lies to my other relatives and that very "relative" can't keep her mouth shut, she think what her family so good urgh? God, I wish I can tell her this,

"Your damn bitch is stupid, so she can't get a job. So stop lying, everyone knows both you and your daughter are bullshits. But thanks for making us laugh, put on more make-up next time ok? Your clownish cosmetics are god damn cheap."

&to my grandmother, i can't trust and rely on you anymore. You seem to side and give face to that shemale but can't you see? she was rude to you once? rude to her own mother too? she coldly meant every selfish acts towards arwah mummy ok, even if i was rude to her, i didn't made mummy cried.

Yes i know that my family is like shit ever since she's gone. But gossiping about the bads is like, killing me. I wish you people die of some fucked up brain disease.

Well, im not going to bother about this. It's the past and it will be a waste for me to burn brain cells to give a fuck about old bitches chewing shit.

I'm super happy that toda's meet with Rusydi. We didn't fight at all. Well, there are some we were pissed with each other, and that's a little stupid. But all in all, it's really cool!

I ATE 2 BOWLS OF FISH PORRIDGE AGAIN!

SEE SEE!

Then we headed to City Hall to lepak, took pics urgh. Hahaha! Can make animation tau tau tau. Uhm, i will post them tmr with gig pictures? Tmr got gig. Lazy to go urgh, but TWM performing and that is when my girlfrans come and gather, so i have to go, i miss them so!

Ok largh, i post one now ok? Hahahaha!

Oh my god, i'm actually gonna wear that again for gig tomorrow. Maybe? Well, i haven't thought of what to wear so yeah.

Urgh, christmas. I want a present ): Haha, that vintage ring that costs 50 bucks plus? I WANT I WANT! Well, i'll be getting it tomorrow so no doubt. Gonna ask ayah for i think about 10 bucks more to top up ez link when, i have like 200 bucks plus, but i got plans how to spend it.

I cant wait to go get stationeries for school. &school shoes too! I cant wait for school argh. I guess i'll be taking drama next year. Oh come on, i was awarded best actress while in primary school because i cried. Actually because my secret crush was acting as well and he was told to scold me in the script. &i took it to heart, so yeah, viola!

I love ayah now. I screamed at him less and less. He cooked for me maggi special when he asked if i were like to eat rice and his fried vegie. Obviously no, so he cooked with extra potatoes and 2 eggs and like super hot chilli! As you all know, i love fresh green &red chilli. Chilli padi also love!

My tweenie-weenie-boyfriend-who-smiles-like-a-girl was fed up with his family and it's all because of the stupid ez-link that can't tap. I mean, as a family help la eh? Grrr, his family makes me piss too hahah, but i have no rights so yeah ( :

I told my girlfrans not to mention about my family. I guess because i don't wanna waste time with people who don't give shit about me and why should i right?

Who will be there for you till the end? Family right? Family first? I prioritise only those i care most, so if you are saying i'm cruel to my family, who's cruel now?

I know i've been a spoilt brat when i was younger, but there are some certain cases where i give in too okay. WHO TOLD YOU NOT TO BE CLOSE TO YOUR BLOODY PARENTS? Abang Hafidz doesn't sober about me being a spoilt brat, that's why both ayah and arwah mummy loves him, because he is understanding. You jinggle balls kept complaining of unfairness, do you think our parents care?! HAHAH, i'm always laughing it off. HAHA!

ARGH SHHHH! Hehh, :D

I still have not cleared up my stuffs. I have to wake up early in the morning before i go for gig to clear them up. I'm not gonna be free on Saturday ):

Oh yes, i need help! Should i cut my fringe? Before school? Should I should i?

TASHA SARI! PM AKU KAT MSN PLEASE MACEHS.

(10:25 PM)