Thursday, October 05, 2006
Hoho! now i knew why i've been moody all the while! I was having PMS -__-" Fucktard. Having PMS during exams is so not useful. I mean liek when you tried all your wits to get things into you b r a i n, your mood overtakes you. Argh, i hate moodswings. Super sucks. Anyways, let's see. I am now into my all so normal life again. Boring boring. But oh well, i'll look for fun. No worries. Lemme see. It's 2am in the morning and a few hours later, i'll be having my literature exam which I HAVE NOT STUDIED and my art exam. Yay art!
How pathetic is it that you love art but you can't draw -___-" rawrrh. Haha! I can draw robots, monsters, dinosaurs, dead sying sadistic girls and urhhmmm, triangular shaped people? Haha, i'll show you one day uh. I believe in myself and I dream to be a great graphic designer at a young age. I'm aming to be known as a young artist latest by 16. That is sooooooo, my goal for life. GAAAAHHHH! At last, a goal for nurul. You know I haven't had a goal for life before. Haha. This one is for real. So here are my plans.
READY TO LISTEN TO MY CRAPS?1. Go take up art courses/sign up for art tutorials or workshops (despite the cost, tsktsk o.O")
2. Go fill up my empty 20 pockets B4 clear folio/file with artworks/pieces (art folio?)
3. Go for endless photoshoots or photography blablas with dearest aisah(:
4. Go shopping! (hey must ok!)
5. Go S O C I A L I S E (new friends hurray)
6. Go hang out with my buddies.
7. Meet Farhan see him jam and perform for me Guardian Angel live (esp. FOR ME ^_^)
8. Go gigs! I miss gigs -_______-" Esp, norman's because i wanna meet sofie sexxyyyy.
9. Go buy many local production clothings.
10. Online shopping to happen once in a lifetime thing for my 14 years of living.
11. Start a new fashion statement/trend! [Tough one, i'm trying to invent my own stuffs and sell it after going for art courses] (Another goal, hurray)
12. If Norman the boss will still take me as the supporter of his comapany.
13. Go get a domain.
14. Make more friendsssssssssss. (Be a socialite? Whoah. I'll be hitting every party every night heh)
15. Go make things right (i believe in karma, so let's go clean sins)
Hmmm, sins i've made and have remembered i made so far.
1. To visit mother's grave every weekend.
2. To make father veryveryvery happy atleast once a week.
3. Say sorry to people I've been a bitch to.
4. Stop hating someone so much (zaISDiSAFIisfasofsf)
5. Go start praying my ass off( i owe god alot of things)
And now, the things i financially have to plan.
1. Money for art courses/tutorials/workshop
2. Money for art materials.
3. Money to shop, heh.
Damn, starting a new life is fun! Reallyreally, i see many nicenice things about to happen. But yeah, things don't always happen the way you expected. But who cares?! I care for what's the best only. And I've learned that even being single is so much way fun then being single and not available. HOH! I love people like Ian, Tasha, Dinah, Wawan(dickhead), FARHAN!, and many more la. They have made me realise that it's time to LOVE YOURSELF. Because the world's colder even if global warming sets your ass burning. Hah, now that's lame sial. Ok. Hmmmm, Imma gonna quit NETBALL for goo. Bye sports. Wait, I still love sports. I love... RUNNING AROUND WITH MY BOXERS HALF WAY DOWN. Hah, no la, I love to jump. Wait, it make me grow taller. Urhhhm, ok la, i love hockey and floorball and soccer with the girls and, catching gays and many more. Oh loo, fatin is starting to love her life again. THANKS TO YOU GUYS.
YOU GUYS changed me. From a bitch to a hellogoodmorningi'mnurul! Farhan you make me happy everyday la. Yay hero! Dinahdinah, where are you?! Let's hang out. I like friendly, outgoing people. Why? because I love going out. Hah, (outgoing get it?) yeah. Wonder how Hani can have so many friends and yet she don't hang out with them? HANI, gimme some of your kawan. This involves exposer of self identity. And self identuty as a good designer or someone who can do art that interests people nowadays is the sex. I mean, i dont wanna be exposed as just nurul with the dimple from pathetic geek school, damai. I wanna be exposed as ROBOGORE. That'll be my brand name hah! Dream on nurul, okok, let's go live the dream.
I feel so inspirational la. What the fuck?! I need help too ok.
His in my thoughts and in my prayers, well now, only being a person who cares for everyone and everyone cares is way much more better. I'm young and I shouldn't be wasting my youth with hurtful relationships. So i decided that I shall not be into serious relationship until 16/17. Unless ofcourse before that, i believe if it's necessary. No love drama can bring me down so badly like this one anymore. And i'm not easy to be brought down. But hey, I'm still average. Like what?! The normal nurul who loves to disturb TASHAAAAAAAA and shout FARHAAAAAN! and hang out with FAIIIIIIIII and ZACCCCCCCHH. Aidil may might as well live as normal as he can because he reminds me of him and yes, i won't neglect aidil.
I NEEEEED MORE GFS. Serious. And I mean GFs that are BFF and sisterlove, bloodslittering love kinda friends. Like,,,,, Tasha(:
Hani and Farah, ok la. But they have their own business to care about.
First GF target! Jerri of Dinah! HAHA.
*Sometimes, it's better to love your friends more than to love someone special.
(2:29 PM)
